World Bored Me

Crying in my room, but I keep it top secret.
People tell me they care, but they didn't mean it.
I'm cut open even thought I'm not bleeding.
My heart's broken so Imma make it stop beating.
Someone runs into my room and screaming
SHE'S NOT BREATHING!!!

I popped some pills with some tylenol,
a bottle of antidepressants, I didn't puked of anything.
I can't picture myself to a grown woman.
I don't wanna grow up, I hate change and everything is just so rearranged.
My life is nothing but disaster.

I act happy, but I wanna die
I'm not gonna lie, thoughts of suicide keeps crossing my mind.
Going crazy cause I'm going through bullshit.
Look me in the face, I'm sick in my eyes, cause I'm sick in the mind.
I've been wishing to die since 11 years old.

I ain't trying to get everyone feel bad for me. 
People don't understand how much I hate my life.
Dear World.. I'm leaving cause I'm bored and I think that I lived long enough.
So in this sweet cesspool, good luck :)

We Tried To Survive

Why there was so shinning?

What was happening?

What kind of life I've been through?

Beautiful

No pain

No pressure

Just bunch of happiness..

I woke up. And that was just a dream.

Here's the real life!

Cruel.

Day by day people are getting sick.

They put some pills just for cut the pain.

I do.

But that's not just me.

Some of them too.

I'm just looking at around me, there is so many teens.

Consumed pills.

Not for getting high.

They just need to calm themselves.

They just need to calm the anger.

We just need to.

Every adults never thought how hard we survive.

They just see how we live as a crazy kids.

We spent money, we get our laughs, we stayed all night outside.

They don't even know how hard our life.

There is nothin we can tell about our personal problem.

Even tell to mom or dad.

If we tell them how our life is, they will send us to rehabilitation or psychiatrist.

That is not helping.

Some parents are selfish. They never realise this era is getting chaos for no reason.

We are just victims of our minds.

I wish I can rewind my life.

But that's not possible. 

The thing that we can do now is just face the time.

Let the tears down if we want.

Don't hold so hard when you can't.

If you have kids right now and you just read my shit.

Just close your eyes..

Imagine your kids's smile..

How hard they show it to you..

Don't ever shout them bad because they consumed anti depressant pills.

Think why they need those pills..

Pills can't kill.

Kids nowadays need more attention, not a possessive parents without knowledge.

Love you, Mom and Dad